This summer, I visited New York City for the first time. I’d been planning the trip to visit my fellow Trendom Co-Founder and to embark on a road trip to Boston (to see our beloved One Direction in the last show of the North American leg of OTRA, of course). I knew my trip would affect me, in one way or another, but I didn’t think it would actually change my life. I’m not the same person I was when I first hopped off the plane at LaGuardia airport. Or the same person I was when I got in my first taxi. Or the same person I was when I arrived at the front steps of Amelia’s house. I found my best friends, my home, and myself.
Who knew that a random follow, an exchange of a phone number, and a large group message would lead to a life long friendship. I knew these girls were special to me, but after meeting and magically clicking with these girls I now know that we have an unbreakable bond that will last forever. It was fate that we all found each other the way we did. The weekend was filled with so much love, emotion, and One Direction; a roller coaster that I didn’t want to end. Amelia, Alyssa, Angela, and Stephanie saw me at my best (dance moves in the car) and my worst (sobbing in multiple restaurants). Although, I can say the same about them and I cherish every moment. I lost count of the stomach aches I had gotten from laughing so hard after the second hour of being there, and ignored the strange looks we received on the subway because of our One Direction chatter after the second day.
Not only did these girls change my life, but the city did too. All my life I have lived in a small town and I’ve always dreamed of something bigger, but I didn’t know how big. But you know what they say, “go big or go home,” right? Right. Walking around in such a massive city felt so freeing. I didn’t have to worry if I was being judged and I could just be myself and not worry about blending in. And I sure as heck stood out the day I wore my One Direction shirt. No shame.
In such a loud city, I felt happy and peaceful. And to fill you in on a secret, happiness is something I haven’t genuinely felt in a very very long time.
I was finally able to escape the small town mindset and think for myself. I learned a few things about myself that I never knew. I didn’t know I was capable of making my dreams come true until this trip. Like Trendom, for example. I didn’t know that a small dream could be made into such a big, incredible, and beautiful thing that I helped create. And of course I already knew I’m obsessed and in love with One Direction, but it was confirmed at OTRA Boston that I am, and always will be, a Harry girl. No matter how many times I claim to be a Niall girl, Harry taps me on the shoulder, gives me that smirk, and says “I don’t think so.” I can’t even deny my love for him. I AM A HARRY GIRL.
And look, he’s welcoming me back with open arms.
Although I was so sad to go back to Missouri, I decided to stay happy. Happy feels good and looks good on me; on everyone. Not only did I find home in New York City, but I also found home in some pretty amazing girls. Knowing that, I don’t think I’ll ever feel so alone now as I did back then. Of course, there are going to be times when we’ll feel sad and we’ll miss each other, but we’ll ALWAYS have each other in our hearts. This distance is just temporary.
I encourage you all to take a chonce. Go meet your best friend. Travel to a city you’ve always dreamed of visiting. Do it all with an open mind and I promise you won’t regret it. Like mine, your life could change unexpectedly. Or even if it doesn’t change your life at all, you still had an experience I’m sure you’ll never forget. If I would have never taken this chonce, I wouldn’t be who I am today, the happy girl who is working harder for her future and not letting anything or anyone stand in her way.